A thought from Noel Bedia on Setting Someone Free...

Sometimes, we just have to let go of someone who matters to us not because we have to, but because it's the right thing to do. Let us remember that we can't force anyone to love us. We can't beg someone to stay when he/she wants to leave and be with someone else. This is what love is all about. However, the end of love is not the end of life. It should be the beginning of understanding that leaves for a reason, but leaves with a lesson.

Half Crazy...

Know I haven't slept a week at all
Since you've been gone
And my eyes are kinda tired
From crying all night long
Know I've never been too good at cooking just for one
It's so lonely here without you baby
Come back home
'Cause I'm half crazy
Feelin' sorry for myself
Half crazy
Worried you'd find someone else to love
Know life hasn't been much fun at all
Since you've been gone
And my eyes begin to fill
Each time I hear our song
I spent every minute asking myself
What went wrong
Can't we try to talk it over baby
Come back home
'Cause I'm half crazy
Feelin' sorry for myself
Half crazy
Worried you'd find someone else to love
But baby there is no-one else
Half crazy
For everything you saying
Half crazy
No one else could love you like I do
'Cause I'm half crazy
Feelin' sorry for myself
Half crazy
Worried you'd find someone else to love
But baby there is no-one else
Half crazy
For everything you saying
Half crazy
No one else could ever love you
No one else could ever be
Half crazy
Feeling sorry for myself
And I'm worried you'll find someone else
Feeling sorry for myself
Half Crazy

Before I Let You Go...

I can still remember yesterday
We were so in love in a special way
And knowing that you loved me
Made me feel oh so right
But now I feel lost, don't know what to do
Each and every day I think of you
Holdin' back the tears, I'm trying with all my might
Because you've gone and left me standing All alone
And I know I've got to face tomorrow On my own....But baby....
Before I let you go
I want to say I love you
I hope that you're listenin' 'Coz it'strue,baby
You'll be forever in my heart
And I know that no one else will do,yeah
So before I let you goI want to say it.....I love you
I wish that it could be just like before
I know I could've given you so much more
Even though you know I'd given you all my love
I miss your smile, I miss your kiss
Each and every day I reminisce
'Coz baby it's you
That I'm always dreaming of...
Letting love go is never easy
But I love you so
That's why I set you free
And I know
Someday
Somehow
I'll find a way
To leave it all behind me
Guess it wasn't meant to be But baby.........
So before I let you go I want to say.......it I love you

I'm DEPRESS! And I don't know how long it will last!

This song reminds me of my unconditional love to someone! And I think setting him free is the best thing to do! Though my heart bleeds, i'll bear the pain because I love him so much!

I know I can get over this emotional turmoil.

I Love It!

I LOVE IT!- is my new expression because I love every moment that I am with my friends especially if I am with Edward!

Lemon Tea... Grande?

After our talk at Banate National High School we were invited by Joeylisa Dasas, Career Adviser of STI- Barotac Viejo to had a heavy snack at a resto in front of STI- Barotac Viejo campus. She told us to try lemon tea grande, its an ice tea in a "garapon". Oh my gosh, its like a 500 grams ice tea drank in one sitting only. You should try it, it cost only 15 pesos. And the effect of lemon tea grande is seen in the picture above. hahaha!

Career Guidance with the Boys... Love It!

Last Saturday, I was task to have a career orientation seminar at Banate National High School. I was supposed to be with Edward only but before we leaved the school I saw Mark Gumawa and George Edward Acepcion, for them to experience what it is to be in a COS I tagged them along.

We dropped Mafe's group at Leganes National High School and proceed to Dumangas to fetched Edward and Miguel, then off we go to Banate.

I had my short talk together with Joeylisa of STI- Barotac Viejo because according to their adviser most of their students prefer STI- Barotac Viejo because its near, its just 10 kilometers away from their school not unlike STI- Iloilo which is very far from their place.

But despite the setback, its still one of the most memorable I had because it was an all male group I brought to Banate. hehehe...

The Past

I was wrong when I hurt you
But did you have to hurt me too
Did you think revenge will make it better?
I don`t care about the past
I just want our love to last
There`s a way to bring us back together

I must forgive you
You must forgive me too
If we wanna try to put things back
the way they used to be
`Cause there`s no sense in going over and over
The same things as before
So let`s not bring the past up anymore

Out of all the good we had
You only keep track of the bad
Though you knew I never really loved her
Didn`t anyone tell you yet
That to forgive is to forget
How can you be mad if you don`t remember

I must forgive you
And you must forgive me too
It`s the only thing that`s left
that we haven`t try to do
One thing that I`m sure will work
That we haven`t tried before
Let`s not bring the past back anymore

This song is lovingly dedicated to Stephen Jamili

Career Guidance with a new batch of Student models

We had our career orientation seminar at Anilao National High School and at Santo Tomas National High School in the mountainous area of Passi City. With me is a new batch of student models of STI namely: Chimbylyn Iniego, Paul Vincent Delamide, Alyza Herene De La Pena, and Jennifer Villaguas. Carmencita Diaz, STI's premiere English teacher went with the group.

A Very Special Love in a very Special Night

February 18, 2009 is a very special day for me, my post valentines date with my one and only Edward. Though it cross my mind to invite him for dinner but everything is unplanned, I am recommending him to work to a friend who happens to be the owner of the resto where we had our lovely date. Then this friend of mine told us that he's going to treat us to a romantic dinner in one of the romantic areas of his resto and of course I said, YES!!! We had our romantic dinner and that was it! Details is confidential! The only thing that I could disclose is that I called Lloyd Celis to take pictures of our moments together because I was shy to ask the waiters to take pictures of our special night. hahaha!

Edward and I in Guimaras... A Working Date

On February 16, 2009, we had our career orientation seminar in Guimaras Province. We went to Magamay Natinal High School, Salvacion National High School and Cabalagnan National High School.

With me is Joan Lacorte, the Career Adviser and the one who makes me happy and contented with my life, Edward Magallanes. It was a working date for me and Edward because originally we planned to have a lunch date on that day but because of my responsibility as guidance counselor I have to be in Guimaras for the career guidance. So, what we did was to enjoy every moment that we're together in that beautiful island.

It's Over Now

You

You turned and walk away

I didn't know what to say

I closed my eyes to hide

The pain I felt inside

I could never understand

How love went out of hand

And now there's nothing I can do

Though the feeling hasn't passed

Sad to say our love didn't last

Please don't ask me to pretend

'Cause I know it's over

When I'm done forgetting you

You can say what you wanted to

Please don't ask me to pretend

'Cause I know it's over now

Now I'm left here all alone

A heart without a home

How will I ever find

The love I left behind

Once, the days were ours to share

Now you don't even care

And there's still nothing I can do

Though the feeling hasn't passed

Sad to say our love didn't last

Please don't ask me to pretend

'Cause I know it's over

When I'm done forgetting you

You can say what you wanted to

Please don't ask me to pretend

'Cause I know it's over now...

Though the feeling hasn't passed

Sad to say our love didn't last

Please don't ask me to pretend

'Cause I know it's over

When I'm done forgetting you

You can say what you wanted to

Please don't ask me to pretend

'Cause I know it's over now

Though the feeling hasn't passed

Sad to say our love didn't last

Please don't ask me to pretend

'Cause I know it's over

When I'm done forgetting you

You can say what you wanted to

Please don't ask me to pretend

'Cause I know it's over now

This song is dedicated to Stephen Jamili

Barangay Mandog, Maasin Fiesta

Its Valentines Day, and its fiesta time again at Barangay Mandog, Maasin. For two years now, STI faculty and staff never failed to attend its annual barangay fiesta courtesy of Mira Lorque, former Career Adviser of STI College- Iloilo. See how happy and excited STI people are in the picture.

Dine Out at Markims

Last night after a fun-filled watching experience of zarzuela, Ryan Araneta, Grace Nono and myself decided to satisfy our stomachs at Markims, a private resto at Diversion Road fronting Smallville Complex and besides Annie Divinagracia- Sartorio School of Dance. The food is delicious and the service is good.

Zarzuela... Padayon ang Istorya!

Last night was the night that we've been waiting for... the last run of Iloilo Zarzuela... Padayonang Istorya of UP in the Visayas Alumini Performing Group under the direction of Alfredo Diaz before they leave for its Manila run. It was my second time to watch this zarzuela and I'm not tired of watching this show because of its cultural and historical value, it's very entertaining and informative. It started with an excerpt about a datu and his misfortune on love, it was a serious act that everyone was so quite and was trying to ponder what the act is all about. It was followed by an act about the condition of a mother who has three children, one was schooled in Spain the other one in America and the other one is left behind in Iloilo and is fluent in the native dialect. The third act was about Ma Pa Ta. It was an act about a son of a rich man who do nothing but spend his parents money to vices and girls, until the day that his father caught his lies. The fourth act was the most entertaining because the theme is all about love. The story is about a "laon" who bet on her friends that the guy who is "laon" also will court her. She did not know that the guy also bet with his friends that he can make the girl say "yes" to him. The last act is not very clear to me but it was also very entertaining about a woman who has a beautiful daughter whom a lot of guys in the barrio are dying to marry including Obal, a "patpatin" guy. Indeed, zarzuelas are very entertaining. I am so happy that I experience to watch a zarzuela in my lifetime. I hope that the succeeding generations will still be able to witness a zarzuela.

Jasper's Birthday Bash

My former baby Jasper John Andrada just turned 29 last February 9, 2009 but celebrated his simple yet memorable birthday bash just this afternoon at around three in the afternoon. It was a happy experience because most of the faculty and staff were present and enjoyed the celebration. On the other hand, it is Madam Mafebel's birthday today February 13, 2009, she is 40 years old. Oh my gosh, soon she'll experience midlife crisis. I dread the day to see Mafe having tantrums like a baby, ew! Anyway to both of you Jasper and Mafe, Happy birthday! Mwah!

Noy Edward!

I love to see Edward everytime he comes over at the guidance office to visit me or do his seatworks or homeworks on my table using my LENOVO laptop.

He is always welcome in my office because he's very special to me!

See you around Noy Edward!

Pilgrimage of Our Lady of Fatima

On February 12, 2009, the Image of our Lady of Fatima arrived in Iloilo City particularly at the Jaro Cathedral.

STI Faculty and Staff made history by attending the arrival of the Image. It was such a blessed experience to be there waiting in prayer to get a glimpse of our Lady of Fatima.

Did I Really Love Him?

A lot of friends, colleagues were asking if I really love Stephen, the answer is YES! Believe it or not I did love him but there are circumstances and events that come along the way that made us bitter with one another. But never did I regret that once in my lifetime I came across a guy like him and once in my lifetime he made me happy. Its just so sad, that everything ends this way.

I still have feelings for him but I know time will come that everything that happened and is happening right now will be part of my love history.

I Remember Stephen, But I Don't Remember the Feeling Anymore!

Stephen and I during our heydays

Today I heard them play the song againAn old familiar strain from way back whenEvery note and every lineIt's always been a favorite song of mineIt used to haunt me so some years agoReminds me of a boy I used to knowAnd although the melody lives onThe memories and the boy are all but goneAnd while the song still brings that certain glowAnd the words still sing of love I knowIt isn't quite the way it was beforeI remember the boyBut I don't remember the feeling anymoreThe promises we made seemed easier thenAs if we knew our love would never endBut seasons change and time erases the tearsAs quickly as the rivers disappearSo while the song still brings that certain glowAnd the words still sing of love I knowIt isn't quite the way it was beforeI remember the boyBut I don't remember the feeling I remember the boyBut I don't remember the feeling anymore

This song is a reminder that once in my lifetime I did love Stephen. Its just that some good things never last...

Good Things Never Last!

Stephen


I asked myself if Stephen is really worth my love and attention. I considered him as one of the best if not the best guy I've met and the most intimate I should say.

There are times when our values and personality would clashed, may be because of age gap or outlook in life but I always put in my mind that I should understand him and be more patient because his young and full of "insecurities".

One incident that made us clashed is when we chatted over the net and I practically joked on him that I was a girl, but I know that he knows that I am the one that he was chatting with. That made him sulked (until now) like a child.

I know that I made a mistake in doing that and I already asked for his forgiveness but to no avail.

Its been a week already that his snubbing me and giving me a cold shoulder. Even if it hurt me, I'm bearing the pain because in a way I love him.

Just this morning, someone reported to me that he joined a fraternity and they had their "hazing" last Friday. Believe it or not , I am really hurt of what I heard from my source because in the first place I know him as a nice guy during the first semester and I never imagined that he would ever joined that group.

But come to think of it, why should I be bothered if he joined that group? The reason is very simple, I love him and I don't want him to be like other members of that group that has a tumultuous schooling habit.

It's really a slap on my face when it was confirmed by another student that indeed he joined that group. I was devastated. I really don't know how to react on this considering that I love him so much.

My point is, he's with me since June and I was his teacher in Professional Ethics and he's special to me and yet he managed to joined that group.

I feel that I am a big failure. I am really frustrated and disappointed.

I REALLY FEEL BAD!

I guess this is it, some good things never last!

Finally... Baby Rogen and I

He is one of the cutest guy I've seen in STI. It's a dream come true for me to have a photo-ops with him.

I'm so happy I got the chance to know him and get to know him more in the coming days.

Mwah!

Baby Yani ang his Fairy God Mothers!

Oh my gosh, it's so difficult to be a mother. Lloyd and I experienced to be a fairy godmother to baby Yani when we went to Robinsons Mall last night to unwind.

It was a tiring responsibility but very fulfilling because for once in our lifetime we experienced how to be a fairy godmother.

Tell Me... Where Did I go Wrong?

There are nightsWhen I can't help but cryAnd I wonder why you had to leave meWhy did it have to end so soon?:When you said thatYou would never leave meTell meWhere did I go wrong ?What did I doTo make you change your mind completely ?When I thoughtThis love would never endBut if this love's not ours to haveI'll let it go with your goodbye