Good Things Never Last!

Stephen


I asked myself if Stephen is really worth my love and attention. I considered him as one of the best if not the best guy I've met and the most intimate I should say.

There are times when our values and personality would clashed, may be because of age gap or outlook in life but I always put in my mind that I should understand him and be more patient because his young and full of "insecurities".

One incident that made us clashed is when we chatted over the net and I practically joked on him that I was a girl, but I know that he knows that I am the one that he was chatting with. That made him sulked (until now) like a child.

I know that I made a mistake in doing that and I already asked for his forgiveness but to no avail.

Its been a week already that his snubbing me and giving me a cold shoulder. Even if it hurt me, I'm bearing the pain because in a way I love him.

Just this morning, someone reported to me that he joined a fraternity and they had their "hazing" last Friday. Believe it or not , I am really hurt of what I heard from my source because in the first place I know him as a nice guy during the first semester and I never imagined that he would ever joined that group.

But come to think of it, why should I be bothered if he joined that group? The reason is very simple, I love him and I don't want him to be like other members of that group that has a tumultuous schooling habit.

It's really a slap on my face when it was confirmed by another student that indeed he joined that group. I was devastated. I really don't know how to react on this considering that I love him so much.

My point is, he's with me since June and I was his teacher in Professional Ethics and he's special to me and yet he managed to joined that group.

I feel that I am a big failure. I am really frustrated and disappointed.

I REALLY FEEL BAD!

I guess this is it, some good things never last!